hmmm here i am, sitting in front of my pretty lappytoppy, ok not so pretty, but sure addictive.... like oh man, i'm spending way too much time sitting in front of this note'book' instead of sitting in front of my proper school books! Oh man.... disz isz noz goodz!! Awy, i'm happy today.... ok as u see, i'm a person of extremely fluctuating moods.. ONe moment me is happy, nxt moment me is sad... hmmmm...... oh well..... Anewaes........ i went wif me daaaddyy to view house today.. went to view meadow lodge.... i think that's the name watever... Anewaes, ya at first i thought we were just going there to look see look see.... then hor when my daaddyy was like expreessing some keenness in front of that salesperson i was like... 'thats good acting.... oh man... oh well life's about acting i guess.' Seriously, that was what i thought! Haha........ Hmmmm then rite, i soon after that found out that he was prreetty serious about it.... Oh My!!! That TOTALLY brightened my day.... He then told me he and mummy had been considering a while to move... Ok actually i knew that all along.... only that i always thought we were going to downgrade.. again.... so never expressed much rather any interest before... and then now, like suddenly, tell me we gonna consider moving to a condo.... oh man!!! (we're gonna view more houses next week i think) Hope we'll find sumthing goods... i wanna move i wanna move... soon! (see the deal's that we'll move but it may be as soon as... soon... and as long as like 3 yrs, depending on... the innerpeace i guess) Haha... Oh well my God is good... so i prob don't hafta wait so long haha... Hmmm i also don't noe wat to say... the thing is, actually for this month, we've met with some sudden unforeseen difficulty with our finances... so actually this month's really gonna be quite erhmmm... don't noe how to say.... but hey.... despite this, somehow we have the means to move house.... hmmm confusing eh? i think so too.... hiya watever it is, Glory to God la... i noe somehow we're going to tide over this month with no problem.... thru Him!! cuz of His promise to supply all our need according to His riches in glory thru Christ Jesus.. Praise God... As sometimes, or rather many times, my faith rocks like Noah's ark, and as i always feel down and out and etc... He is still my faithful King and He WILL see me thru!! Just wait and see!!

Dear Lord, i really need ur strength and wisdom here Lord... I really haf got no idea if getting in touch with Chris again is a good thing for me? I dono if i'm equipped with the emotional ability to handle this friendship....
Lord i'm really confused..... just now when he called me i started out quite like jittery.... then after that i actually felt quite irritated by the things he said? hmmmm..... what do i feel towards him? Did i feel irritated cuz of his conversation? Or was it to protect myself by conditioning me to be indifferent toward him so i won't get hurt? in the event that he really gets another girlfriend or sthg...............
Hmmmm actually i cud be quite positively sure that the irritation stems from the former..... I mean there were some things he said, oh man like..... please give me a break..... ya thats so Chris aneewaes... That was one thing i cudn't really stand then and still cudn't now... hmmm.... Anndd......... he doesn't noe me like at all anymore.... Hallo!! 2 yrs is really kinda long eh? Considering how much my life's been transformed by u Lord....... which, Praise God!!! Anndd.... the thing is, neither do i noe him anymore.. works both ways? hmmm....
Hiya hiya i noe that i don't like him anymore la.... Ok i'll admit it... Its just my big fat ego... and my soft spot for feelings.... like i'm just a very easily emotionised person.... (word created by yours faithfully haha)... and maybe also cuz my NUS no life is too sian to take... haha.... but, whatever it is, i noe I'm still waiting for my OMG Mr. all meant for Pearlyn, to come into my life and just bowl me over...... haha ok meibee not so exaggerated.... but well my pt brought across.... So in fact, i noe where i'm heading.... Just need to stay focussed.... And Lord, that's where i'm most vulnerable and weak.... but this being so, thats where i noe u'll be able to work in my life the fullest.... I surrender all to u Lord....
Ya Lord, teach me, fill me with your Love, lemme noe how to handle this, how do i go about maintaining a friendship with him? Or shld i at all? For 2 yrs i've lived life happy without him.... Shld i reallow an entity like this to re enter part of Pearlyn, even as her friend? This sounds selfish i do realise, but i really don't noe how to handle, and i'm not prepared to....... Oh Lord... Bring me into a phase of maturity Lord...

heez... i'm here again... hmmm hadn't wanted to switch on the com tonite but hiya hafta print the psych notes.. wat to do? Sigh haha... :)
Hmmm went for this jill lowe image consulting preview seminar just now... was not too bad... about 3 hrs or 2 and 1/2... ya awy, she talked quite general la.. about hair, then a bit on makeup, and dress colours-4 seasons.. ya... there's a few things i found particularly true.. especially about the part about the fact that it is a necessity to put on make up in society.. as a corporate law... then.... how like presentation, appropriate, can really change or impact a person's view about another...
Heehee praise God... ok i don't profess to be very very skilled in terms of dressing up and presentation... but oh well, i think overall i shld be able to more or less pass la.. keke...
The best part is, i think God's given me this hmmm cud i say interest, for such things... like dressing up and looking good...
ok fine, all if not most girls like to dress up... DUH... But me??? Oh man.. sometimes i also dunno if i shld commend myself for that... in the recent year, i've already toned down so much man... last time ah, hiyoh i can spend an entire day in front of the mirror and not feel bored.. keke.... then when fashion parade mood strikes, keke the room becomes.................... i shall not even bother to describe.. haha...
hmmm ever i got into nus though, i kinda don't put so much emphasis on dressing up liao... duno why also..... can't be bothered liao la.... its only when i go church, or out gai gaiing.... now like the fashion parades have decreased significantly liao... well well that's wat nus quot&life&quot does to me... hhaaha..... hmmmm nonetheless, i'm still crazy over dressing up la... whenever i get into the mood.... oh man.... ok this makes me sound so hiaw... but.... hey its fun.... kkeke....... i love to experiment with the diff ways to do my hair, i love to work with my eyes especially among all other facial features- shades, eyeliner(which half the time smudges!) etc, i love to work with nail varnishes... diff kinds of colours on my fingers and toes... i love to work with the color combi of my clothes together with which bag matches... i love to see (and buy) my dangly dangly earrings-changed almost every other time- and how it's always the admiration of another.. i love to go shopping and find the cheapest and bestest deals around.. i love to look sophisticated at times, fun at others etc.. oohh i love to create different different statements each time i go out... i love having my photos taken after i've made up... keke.. i..........................
hmmmm.............. I just love being Pearlyn.. the Pearlyn that my frens love.... my parents love.... and most importantly, that God loves............ keke...:)

hey!!! Ok less than 20min before my next lesson.. OMG!! and the thing is, the class is so damn (oops) far from this Science library... i'll like take over 5 min to reach for sure! Haha... Science, doesn't beat the comfort of facilities that we have in Arts man... keke...
Ok now, i wana write about church yesterday... i'll just make it short la... Gist is, God used me to like kinda minister to Xuehui.. I cuda gone for 3rd svs... which i wanted to.. really... but well it started to rain so heavily the moment i wanted to step out of the house. And Xuehui almost didn't wana go church... but God was so good... eventually still bringing her there... and then using me to speak life into her, or so i hope... haha... :)
Ok this is really quite dis-connected... i'm like rushing la... and pc keyboard isn't half as smooth to type as my dear laptop keyboard... Hmmm maybe i'll expand on this entry soon la if i have time... hmmmm..... oh well, final gist: God is good and He'll remain Good....

Yikkes! Had a very bad tasting avacado drink just now... Whatever it is, don't go to Holland V to drink that... haha..... Oh well....... i had a good day nonetheless... earlier part of the day i was erhmm *attempting* to study at home... was scanning thru my South Asian studies reading (which is like a mountain stack high la!) How in the world am i gonna finish reading man? Hmmm...... Only by grace! I will do well!!
Then in the evening i went to Holland V with me parents and Clifton! Had nice laksa and nasi lemak! then basically walked around lor....
Hmmm hahah tmr going to church.... so happy! Can see my darlings again!!! Kekek.... Xuehui and Eleen and all my church.... darlings.... Muacks muacks... my favourite place in Singapore.. ie my second home... I love new creation church! I love my pastor! I love my church buddies!!! so much so much!!!:)