hmmm... ok now, this suddenly feels..... weird.... haha... just, just just, pa told me that even if i get a boyfriend now, he's fine with it... (in fact, he lyk has a candidate in mind already la... this is lyk how off rite? hahah) hmmm.... well, very surprisingly, i have no reaction to that... like seriously... if it was a yr or two ago, i'd have jumped for joy at that notion and freedom... but now, hmmm.... i'm like, ok... hmmm... truly truly, God has indeed transformed me... lyk, i don't feel anything at all la! lyk.. ok... free then free la... won't make a diff to me... my heart is set, that it ain't gonna be so soon... hahaha!!! Praise God! He's really really transformed me... and is doing such great things in my life! Amidst certain disappointments etc abt the camp, i still believe that, i still did receive! lyk, security, being sporting, etc etc... all i ever dreamed of.. that i was not able to bring to pass on my own, He is just doing everything for me! :D Praise God!