hopefully, hopefully, i won't get outbidded again for thai! Lord! Help me!
Lord, so many things call for my attention. This, that, everything. The worst thing is that, i know it is undue attention, only that my heart is troubled. Lord, You have been Lord over our lives for so long now, and i know beyond a shadow over doubt that You are faithful in keeping us. So Lord, guard all our hearts Lord, from worrying, from fret. Thank You Jesus, that in this is love, not that i love You, but that You love me!

Today, i had a real blessed day out with heng tin. She is a special girl. I've said that before, and i'll say it again. Really one of those who catch my heart... in just the glory of the Lord shone thru her. And i thank God, that He has brought such people along my path, to bless me. And Lord, i pray that i'd be able to bless her as well. Who am i, but a vessel in Your kingdom? Use me Lord, to Your glory.

Managed to get to AFR on time, in fact early, today. Cuz somehow all the parents came to pick 'eir beloveds pretttyy early. Less money for me, yet more time! Slowly, made my way there. the jam was pretty fun, especially when the gals were 'pit' against the guys. 2 guys, for that matter, vs well, many girls. haha. And then, as for combat, sigh haha i felt that benji didn't do an excellent job teaching cuz i was really lost here and there. Well i shall not repeat the reason o'er and o'er again, but... he is forgiven. ;p

I'm really blessed. Honestly. Despite certain worries and concerns here and there, i'm still very blessed. Blessed with a wonderful family, awesome friends, opportunities to do things i love, etc etc. What more can i ask in this season of my life? The worries, they just come as a scare. Honestly, they're but symptoms. People, when they worry, it's often concerning things yet to come, based on the symptoms they see. Lets take an example. Lets say, someone is very sick. The people involved do not worry that he is very sick. cuz that's already a fact rite, duh. When they worry, they worry of things that entail the sickness. ie the financial drain, the possibility of death etc etc. All those are not yet come. Therefore people worry, for they're afraid of losing things they still possess, and are dear to them. Well i s'pose that's really the time where we oughta be grounded in the Word of God, and believe that all His promises are yes and amen! For His promises say, that be His stripes we are healed, that with long life He shall satisfy us and show us His salvation, that we shall be above only and not beneath, that we shall be prosperous and have good success, that he shall prosper all we put our hands to, that He shall direct our paths, that the plans He has for us are plans to prosper and not to harm us. etc etc etc.
Ok i have no idea how i digressed, but well i guess i needed to hear that as well.

Oh well, at the end of it, i still opt to believe in my eternal God rather than my temporal circumstances. By the grace of God. Amen.

I have decided. I shall go to Malacca with me parents nxt mon. :) Oh shoots. I'm supposed to go to learning ladder on that day! Ah well... I'll figure somethin'.
Hmmm i'm SO excited! This coming wk's gonna be so exciting! Haha! Ok not really la, come to think about it. But ah well, tmr i'm going to LL, and then go for my jam and combat class, yea then on tue, erm nowhere as yet. lol. Wed, i'm goin for dinner with Bertrand. Haven't seen him in the longest time. Hmmm, i really thank God, that certain things have happened the way it did. That, i just believe that when i see him now, it's gonna be a very nice meeting, and i'd be so comfortable, and... well be a nice friend la. Praise God! Yea then on thurs there's bs, fri JOHOR MAKAN!!! Yep... haha yea actually that, is the highlight la! haha. I am SO SO excited about it. I love me cg. We cud do evrything together! Almost evrything la. Haha. Anyways i am quite glad tht we're choosing JB makan o'er nite cycling cuz frankly, i'm really not soo keen.. plus, i was right about pa not in favour of me going. Well anyways, it really doesn't matter where we're goin really. Though JB does sound like a good place to go eat and jalan jalan. The most important thing is really just the company! I just soo love to spend time with my cg... Oh no, i'm falling deeper and deeper in love with them! haha!
Okok... movin rite along, yea sat there's gonna be campus! No dance for me nxt wk cuz they're gonna have their championships the following day. Oh anyways for the prev lesson, which was yesterday, i had a really pleasant time. And honestly, i could only thank God for it. Shan't go into details.
Hmmm, and then, sunday, I'm serving! plus, FOP!!! And again, guess who i'm going with! Haha. rite, i do feel that i'm kinda neglecting my parents here. But.. oh well, they understand la. And, it doesn't mean that since i don't go with them, that means that i love them less! Put my family and my friends together, great as my friends are, still my family comes first. Is, and always will be. And therefore, I made the decision to go Malacca with them and forsake my members' party rite? Was quite a decision that i had to make there, but i really thank God that He just opened doors of wisdom to me, to be able to choose firmly, and with little doubt. Praise God!
I feel like talking about yesterday too! the nus retreat at mackenzie. It was awesome. The msg, i still need more revelation la. But evrything else, including the food, games (whereby i was sabo-ed to play... but certainly did have fun up there), the p&w, and the companionship... They were awesome. I really love church, and i can't imagine life without it man.
I am so glad, that this semester is gonna start on a happy joyous note, cuz i have all my darlings in school with me! And more to come! Yaay!