Praise God!! I've been feasting SO MUCH in the past week it's just awesome! Today, i went to ah ma's place and had dinner with her... Her birthday!!! (man i almost forgot... but well had to cancel dinner with jia.... nvm i'll call her again soon! ) Anw, Praise GOd for ahma!!! Hmmmm.... and, she seems a little more receptive to Pa sharing the Gospel with her! Praise God!!! In His time!!!!!! Whoa anw, the dinner was awesome! Had fabulous zi cha near her place... had crabs, fake abalone, orni ring, fish, etc etc etc!!! I was so so full that i needed to pace round the house after that for at least 20 min... (reminds me of the time me and Clifton cooked for mummy when pa and Clinton weren't around... haha... that, too was so so filling!) Hmmm i love ahma!!! Lord keep her and protect her Lord!!!
Ooohhh..... So happy!!! Hmmm now rite, i don't even wanna think about anything Lord.... Just wanna be loved by the Best now.... for only You can give me that.... Man fails, but You never! All i want in my love, all is found in You!!!
Ooohhhh.... oh and i wanna say, that today, i was given a shot at 'teaching' in my thai class... it was damn funny and weird.... all of a sudden ?aacaan just asked me to go in front and lead the class in the pronunciation thingy.... then i was just thinking to myself.... hmmm perhaps this is a prophesy! Haha.... My dream of going to Thailand to teach English.... it shall come to pass! Whoa!!!! all of a sudden, talking to dearie yinshan makes me just wanna fly to KL now and have camp!!! so looking forward!!!!! Ooohhhh and how blessed am i to be able to celebrate my special day there, right in His presence!!! Whoooaaaa......

whoa finally, this thing's working! oh man... think i really am becoming (or have become) a blogger addict! anyways, i just wanna pen some stuff here regarding today... hmmm... today, rather, this evening, i met Chris for dinner... Hmmm i think i'm just one confused person... hmmm... i was just so wary about others seeing us... can't stand myself... saw Charles just now, and my first instinct was, siam! so bad... hope he didn't see me, seriously... if not...... hmmm.... Pearlyn what are u doing? OkOK... there's NO CONDEMNATION unto ME! Praise God!!
Hmmm generally, the dinner was not bad la... was in fact one of my first times eating vietnamese food... oh and i bumped into ?aacaan suksii... whoa i was pleasantly surprised that she remembers me and my name... haha... Praise GOd!
You know, i'm just so blessed... so secure in HIs love... So secure knowing that HE has someone so special out there for me... Someone whom i do not hafta go seek for, but whom You'll just bring to me... Lord, You lead me to Your side, leading me more and more into a deeper and deeper revelation of Your love for me... thru every single moment of my life... nomatter where i am, nomatter what i'm doing, nomatter who i'm with, You just fill me so so much with Your love! that i no longer feel the sense of void that i'd used to before, no longer feel the guilt... Your love just reigns Lord... Praise You Lord!
Whoa i'm so excited... gonna meet jia for dinner tmr... Love her so much... feel as though i've got the world to catch up with her tmr... and in fact applicable to my other darlings as well! just felt so impressed to call her out for dinner tmr... we are gonna have a great time! as for my other darlings, yes i'll be calling them one by one too! Praise God!
Haha... i realise, that i hadn't talked about the easter party on good fri at lyd's house... That, was so good!!! Really enjoyed myself so much! gathering with all me darlings again... didn't eat much cuz of me bad throat... ate quite a portion of the pasta though... oh man... U-jin can really cook!! so well somemore! oh and we played merry-go-round... so fun! :D Whoa... that cg's multiplied and strengthened so much... God's goodness is so evident in all their lives... Everyone of them, i see so much in them!! Whoa... i hafta say, that Jiahao is just doing such an awesome job! Praise Jesus! Ooh i just love love love talking about all of them, all the darlings!!! haha maybe indeed i'm brainwashed... but, i just enjoy all their company far far more than anyone else!!! New creation just rocks my world!!!!!! so glad You called me, Lord!!!

Jesus You're just so good to me! So wonderfully good... in the times when i feel there's just nothing left, You give me Your little kiss from heaven... Praise God... I'm awed, I'm amazed at Your love for me, for my family... Praise You Lord! "The storms don't affect u, so long as u're inside the ark".. What Anthony said just now's so true... Whoa i'm so blessed to be given the privilege to mix with these precious people of His, to just be able to draw from each of them... Anthony, Jackie, Nancy, Bee Siew, KC and wife, Kelvin and wife etc etc, all of them are just TREMENDOUS blessings! Whoa i can't believe it Lord, ur goodness... From just going for cg thinking that, oh man i so don't have any testimony today, to really become having A testimony outta the cg time altogether... so precious... how pa was just so divinely touched by the words of life that Kelvin spoke... with respect to Clinton... Shan't elaborate... but, whoa... I'm just so so awed! so temendously awed... awed by His goodness... I just know, and claim, that this time it'll be different... Things will change... And Lord, everyone's lives, just so glorious... all the testimonies, whoa just rocks me!! Praise God! Whoa, and i also liked what Kelvin said about sicknesses... "What makes a cancer any greater than a common cold? Is cancer to God harder to heal than a cold? Symptoms are just temporal... it comes and goes." Praise God... How true... Jesus went around healing ALL who were sick... ALL means ALL... And He is the same yesterday, today and forever!! :D
Oohhh i just love this group of people... love the big house, with swimming pool... which Anthony said i can go use anytime... whoa... Heehee.. ;D love the great makan... love the wonderful company... most importantly, LOVE the fact that God's always so present there! Rocks man!
Praise God Praise God!!
Hmmm heehee... one more thing, hmmm just gotta say, that i no longer, as in totally no longer have any interest in ****** anymore... Dunno whether to say sad or not, haha... Well, God has someone better! Which brings me to another thing, hmmm just now during supper with ma and pa, the coffee guy, quite scary... kept like eyeing me... so scary... then pa still can happily tease me... hiyo...

i need to get my mind out of the way.... seriously, the things of God, using my little finite mind, i really cannot understand at all!
Over the past 2 wks, i've been under SO MUCH attack from the enemy, SO MUCH that i was going to breakdown anytime! But, No temptation has overtaken [me] except what is common to humanity. God is faithful and He will not allow [me] to be tempted beyond what [I am] able, but with the temptation He will also provide a way of escape, so that [I am] able to bear it. (1Cor10:13 )

Lord, You love me with everything You have. Even as i don't see it now, it's greatly proven on Your love act on the cross... Pastor said something just now that i think is so true... When a person is truly born again of His righteousness, he couldn't and wouldn't renounce it... When he does it's probably due to a fit of disappointment, or discouragement with life... Deep down, he doesn't wish to renounce Jesus... THis, i feel, so applies to me... i felt so so down for the past few days... so disappointed, so weary and tired... as i kept asking God where He is... And then, like this morning, as i was going to church, i was just asking myself, "Pearlyn why are you still going to church when you apparently don't see His goodness in your life now?" The answer came almost instantly. Though in sight i see that my life is just so.... *sigh*... deep deep down, inside my Spirit, there's just this knowing, that God is there and He is good... I also dono how to say la... Inside me was just silently yet strongly convicting me that God is good...
Hmmm... really, certain things that happen in life, i do not understand, and will probably never ever will... For His ways are not my ways, nor are His thoughts mine... All i know, is that He has come to give me life, and His plans for me are good, to give me a hope and a future... I'm safe in His hands, and that's all that matters... I hang on..... tight...... in the Beloved.

Anyways, just wanna add, that i had such a blessed time with me nursery team pple... such a wonderful time of fellowship at Geri's house... Wah, so blessed... everyone could cook real well, and we had such a feast of food... and then, since all of us were girls, it was so cool... was really like a girl talk thingy... so kewl.... talked about anything and everything... hahaha... *tsktsk*
Once again i say, IT IS SUCH A BLESSING TO ASSEMBLE WITH HIS PPLE...Whoa... like amidst my terrible day yesterday (which i shan't go into), the fellowship really brightened my day... or evening so to speak haha... Praise God for everything He's doing in my life!

Oh, and YAAY!!! I got my money for camp!!! Praise God!!! Supernatural finances!!! Really really, when u tithe to Him, He multiplies unto u above all u ever ask or think! Praise God!