hmmm Lord, oh my.... well well i got nothing to do now so i'm just blogging lor.... hmmm was supposed to log off like eons ago... but well.... oh well i feel abit like i'm in lala land now... so.... lalalaa... dunno if i shld log off.... Listening to Josh Groban.... was listening to Usher just now... and also linkin park.... and bon jovi! my sec 3 favourite song... It's my life!!!
Yeah i'm just talking plain rubbish... haha... shld probably go bathe and sleep soon... well i don't think i'll join ruox they all in ac afterall.... sleep.....
tmr: i hope i can at least accomplish either going jogging or cleaning the stupid toilets... haha i decided to make that my extra 'module' so the probability of me doing it is higher haha...
well... really, i hope to accomplish either one... or both if possible haha...
Alrites.... i shld really go soon.....
Ok byes... haha

whoa.... i can't believe the goodness of God!! Man He is just so....... whoa..... oh man... hmmm i just wanna say, that today.. i went out with ruoxi and ziyuan and edith and karina... hmmm at first rite, i felt really quite weird cuz i wasn't close or anything to karina... and even with edith wasn't so close... hmmm... but then they were nice la... think they were trying to make me feel comfortable... haha... Ok for the record, the other girls are like quite close to each other already, being from the same class and everything... yea that was why i felt pretty weird.... hmmm... but rite, with ruoxi and ziyuan, well the feeling was pretty much the same with ac... like so nice.. though we haven't like met for ages already cuz like ruox's studying in melbourne and ziyuan in science fac, it felt like we weren't apart for long... Praise Jesus...
Hmmm.... but oh well, still, the overall feeling was not that that joyous la... hmmm... was at suntec la... haha felt so funny and stupid that i was there and not going for bs today... bumped into jianwei and later chor yin... was like telling them i myself felt quite funny for being there yet not going... haha.... but well, i'm supposed to go with my family and hopefully xuehui tmr so...
hmmm.... well me and the girls parted at about 6.15 lidat.. and i headed to the bus stop... then i began to feel a bit like... u noe, that kinda after a long day feeling... like sian sian... hmmm... though the meeting was i suppose generally ok and quite nice, yet i felt.... hmmm.... a bit lifeless maybe? oh well... then in the bus, i was like thinking to myself, O God, i feel like i'm slipping back into my no life life... ya... well, just at the time i was pondering, whoa...... Nancy came on the bus... my goodness.. somehow i just felt so so glad to see her... really.... (Nancy is also serving in the nursery together with me) Yea... really, nothing like seeing someone from church when u're feeling quite weary... haha... Really, though we only like had 3 min or so of conversation, whoa it brought life back... and.... it really brightened my day... or evening... haha praise God... Really really... it's like, church ppl are just so different from other ppl... not that others are not nice ppl, it's just... hmmm... i feel much more life and life more abundantly in church and with the church... Praise Jesus...
Anw, i was supposed to continue with my running regime... but... hmmm... it's late now so maybe tmr... hahaha... :)

hmmm i really don't understand, how can i be so troubled over stupid things? hmmm..... arrrrggghhhh...... hiya, this blog's supposed to be to the glory of God, His testimonies in my life, yet i actually let stupid things make me.... upset, confused... idiot.... well well, it exactly the verse: it's the little foxes that spoil the vine. In Songs of Solomon i think.... Ahh well, i simply refuse and reject being upset... and i refuse to be confused, disturbed, perplexed... the funniest thing is, i don't even noe exactly WHY!! Arrgghh.... OK enough is enough... i'm not gonna let any stupid thing get the better of me... Thank You Lord that u grant me that...
Ok.... moving right along, i wana say, that i went jogging today!! Yaay!! like finally!!! after like months and months and months!! haha.... hmmm.... but........... after like jogging from my place to the park, and then 4 rounds round it, oh man.... i felt i nearly died haha... Nah la, in fact, i felt ok when i was doing my rounds... Then, i think i stopped too abruptly or wat, dunno... ya and the nxt thing u noe, the world started spinning... like really, i felt that i was gonna just drop anytime... the world just became a blur... man.... i went to the pavilion and sat down, and like i just felt super duper terrible... like puking... arrggh then in my mind i was like, oh man where's papa... then i had no phone with me too, so cudn't call for help... and i was just too weak too weak to move outta where i was... hiya.... but well well, that wasn't exactly the first time i was experiencing sthg like that, many times after i start exercising after not doing so for quite a while, that happens.. oh well i knew it'd all be over soon.. thru experience, yet i was in much much agony.... hiyoh... then i was like, (in my mind), oh God, oh Jesus, i don't even have the strength to actually pray anything now... but i know You'd still answer me... And.... yea He really did... after a while, the world came back into focus... and i started to feel better... Praise God...
Hmmm.... oh no.... no flow.... i can't blog anymore... and i shan't...
I pray for better flow in the days to come...

the men just don't get it.... hmmm i really hate it rite, when men see the worst in me... i mean like... when i allow them to see the vulnerable side of me... really.... then cuz they just don't get it, they assume everything i don't noe wat abt me.... ok maybe i'm just paranoid... Really really, men, why can't i ever understand them? and why can't they ever understand us? Like a no. of the men i meet, hmmm either they are plain jerks (in the extreme cases), or they are ok or even quite nice ppl that i just find too deep to understand.. Sigh.... i still prefer the company of my gal frens...
And........ the men of the world..... sigh.......... double sigh........... triple sigh........... men.......

hahaha... thank you Lord, u restore my joy Lord... hmmm... when i logged on just now, i was so blue.... so felt like just complaining and complaining to You here... really.... but Lord, yea, let not my heart be troubled... And i really really thank you Lord, for placing Yinshan at the right place (in front of her com) at the right time.... to minister to me..... really when i was feeling so so down... she just all of a sudden said hi to me online.... just when i really needed someone to talk to... Praise God...
Lord i have so many wishes tonite Lord, and i noe Lord, that i shall have wat i ask....:)
1) that apart from me, Papa will get a deeper and deeper revelation of Your love for him, more and more each day.... that He'll get His portion of joy back!
2) that You'd show Jason, that You are the true God Almighty and that there's no God besides You.... and that every knee must bow down before You... every other god must bow before You!
3) that You'd establish a closer relationship between me and all my other church friends...really... Kingdom Friendships rock! and of course Lord, let me make more frens in Christ... especially from new crea and campus!!
4) that You'd show me Your destiny for me more and more...
5) that You'd establish a closer tie between me and the nusps ppl, and all around me in school..:)
Thank you Jesus... I love You Lord!!:)

God!!! Lord.... hmmm.... u noe, u're really really so so so so good to me..... Oh man.... How can i ever ever thank u.... how can i ever comprehend this love u have for me? Oh man..... Lord..... in fact i wanted to talk about so much so much today.... but Lord, i just feel this overwhelming sense of love u have for me.... Overwhelming!!! Lord, for the yr 2005, show me Lord, more and more... more of Jesus.... to His little princess... Ur little Pearlyn.... OH Lord..... God..... Abba daddy.....
When the oceans rise and thunders roar, i will soar with You above this storm, Father You are King over the floods, i will be still, and know You are God...
Lord, it is just so so precious Lord, to hear from people who are.... Yours.... Lord.... You really make me shed my tears.... You really make me have something to look for.... You really make me have hope in my life... You really hold my everything, the way You'd hold something precious, so gently, so lovingly.... And the best part is, You never let me go, even when i do... even when i'm weary, even disappointed with You, Lord u never let go... And You bring me back, lift me up from where i fell.... Lord You are indeed my ever loving God!! My Jesus, what will i do without You??