this walk has been precarious. this walk has been filled with rocks and stones and every stumbling block i could ever fathom. alrite it hasn't been that bad. but at least it felt real close to that bad.

i am tired from the walk. i am weary. it'd be so welcoming if i could go into a cave and take residence in there, away from the momentum and sways of the rushing world.

i sense inertia. i sense a desire for nothingness; just to sit in awareness of me and my space, and nothing else.

could i just forget the world, and just sit in nothingness?

that's exactly what i'm feeling now.

NONETHELESS,

i do realise the sillyness of the fantasy. i do realise that there's more to my life than just sitting in nothingness. i do realise that this is but a play of my emotions on me. i do realise that there is so much more goodies in store for me in life. i do realise that my life is surrounded and encompassed with a meadow of beautifully coloured and scented field of flowers. i do realise that despite my groanings and pains i am still very superbly loved by my Father in Heaven, my Jesus, my papa on Earth, and many many many other lovely people. I do realise that i have amazing friends by my side to buffer and cushion all my falls and fails. I do realise that in the midst of what seems to be the shadow of the valley of death, God's grace is abounding more than ever; that in every single step of the way He is just increasing me, placing even more wonders in my life, creating paths for me to unwittingly touch lives, and planting more lives alongside to touch my own life.

I do realise, that this will so be over real soon; the rainbow is just behind the dark clouds. The dark clouds are clearing to make way for Daddy's Light to shine through.

Pearlyn awaits in expectation. =)