Psalms23 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green [1] pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest [2] my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever. [3]

If walking this valley will make me stronger, and make me know Him more, i walk it. For He is my protector, my Guarantee of overflowing blessings to come! He has promised that He shall anoint my head with oil, ie stronger anointing, and blessings shall come exceedingly, abundantly above all i ask or think. I hold on to that. Lord, i choose to stay in the promised land, and see the harvest of the seed sown. For i do not cling on to things that are temporal, but eternal Lord. Refresh me, Strengthen me, Bring me through. I grab on tightly to Your hand, lean on Your shoulders, and allow You to take my weight and pull me thru. Thank You Jesus.

it came. sigh. my evil day really came. sigh sigh. WHY must there be trial and tribulation? Such a rough day today. If i thought yesterday was bad, today's horrid. sigh. i don't even know where to start from. sigh. Sigh. Just feel totally drained now. Sigh. Restoration in Jesus' name Amen! i refuse to walk by sight. I am still the Blessed and Beloved. no-matter what. sigh.

w.e.l.l. i had a very blessed, rich day today. Starting from the workout at California fitness, to the SUPER DUPER spicy hokkien mee, to the attempt of borrowing umbrella from john, to the 'interview' at learning ladder, to really starting work there, whoooo.... it was, A Day man. Ok noone would know exactly what i'm talking about here, cuz i'm not elaborating. but oh well, it ain't exactly important so it's ok. The whole point, is that i'm just so blessed! Well i'm not the kind of person who goes to party all night at places like zouk with like the "hippest" people so to speak around; i'm not a person who lives a life of natural glam, as i'd always did fantasize and imagine when i was younger, like ya noe, me as the richest one, the one most in the limelight, an aspiring successful career woman, etc etc. Yet rite, though in reality i don't exactly live such a life, i'm so contented, and so happy. Because i live a Blessed Glorious life! A life of true joy! not totally based on material fulfillments! Heee Praise Jesus!

Praise Jesus! Today's svs was really good, and i am so glad that i went in the end. Praise Jesus.
Hmmm... i've been thinking about campus svs yesterday, and i realise, that ya, many times i still tend to go by my self glorification. it is often when i'm so tremendously blessed, that it is so easy to slip into a prideful mentality. In the sense that i start to take pride and glory in the gift or blessing that God had given me, and start focusing on the blessing itself, rather than the Blesser. How subtle it is, that honestly if deacon didn't bring it up, i really wouldn't in the longest years reflect upon that. There is still so much to learn in His Kingdom, really. In Pet 5:5 it says, "God gives resists the proud, But gives grace to the humble" and goes on to say, Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting ALL your care upon Him, for He cares FOR YOU!
I mean, thank God for righteousness teaching, that i know beyond a shadow of a doubt that He does not condemn me. Yet, i choose to want to continue learning and learning in His Kingdom, that each time after a fall, i just pick myself up, grow stronger, and move on. Praise Jesus!
Well anyways, recently i've really been feeling very very very tremendously happy. I've seen so many, or could i say, almost all my dreams being fulfilled in this holidays; I've seen God work in my life in such a scale; I've seen how God brought me closer to people; I've seen how I'm so changed; I've seen... so much, to an extent that even as i'm typing this, i'm in such awe, that tears are almost welling up. He is so real as my Abba Daddy God, whom i can so easily call and cry out to when i need Him.
Yet, there's been a certain sense of fear in me. Fear of all these ending; fear of going back to a monotonous life as school starts; fear simply, that my blessings will be taken from me, and that my trial will come. I know that i shouldn't fear, but there's just been this ominous sense in me. Praise Jesus though, that He is just slowly showing me truths and revelations about that. As in the 'renewal of mind' kind of revelations, and not the 'ok, i know' kind. Because honestly, in the theoretical sense, i do know that i shouldn't worry about that because He loves me too much, etc etc. But when it comes to, as deaconess lian puts it, crunch time, it really boils down to 'what i really believe'. Praise Jesus, that such revelations are starting to sink in truly, that he won't test me beyond what i can be put through, and that the gifts and callings (blessings) in my life are irrevocable! Praise Jesus, that even as i'm typing this, i just feel such a set free. Praise Jesus!! Wooohoooooo!!! Hey truly! Haha!! Praise God!!! Hahahahahaha.... :D
Haha, ooh anyway, i just wanna share about my dance class yesterday! Haha! It was fun! Keke... the guys there are not so bad to dance with afterall. Haha :D The name is, paso doble. (pear-so do-bay) yep, that's how u pronounce it. Turns out that i still was wearing wrong footwear, despite my attempt and effort of specially shopping for a pair of heels with strap. My heels were the fat kind, as in not glamourous, and the others' heels were, ya noe, sleek high stilettos, that obviously cost much more than my pair of sandals. Hah! Ah well, if i decide that i want to continue with more courses, then i'll consider buying a pair of good, proper dance stilts. But, so far so good. And, it's another of my dreams fulfilled! Yaay!
Oh, i'm supposed to plan a trip to bangkok at the end of the year. Haha can u believe, i actually volunteered myself! *ponderwz* Anyway, it's darn exciting so i don't mind!!! Yaay! I absolutely adore my care group!!! yaay!
Oh i served at the ambs counter for the first time yesterday! it was... hmmm... easy afterall... heh. Praise Jesus that He gives me the grace to do it! :D
And, the fellowship i had today with Eileen, Janice, Cyndy, Chloe, and Geri at cafe cartel, it was ooohhh fantabulous!!! hahaha! All the lovely people in my life! Particularly love what i read in Joan's blog recently. That all the lovely people in her life are all blessings from God. It's true. I DON'T, for one moment, deserve these people in my life, yet because He loves me, hence He places them with me, to bless my life. And He places them there so i could love them too. Ooh so precious.