hmm 2008 is coming to an end! it came, and it is leaving. honestly, so many things has happened in the year. so many. this year marks my graduation from university. this year marks me getting over a certain person. this year marks me having awesome girls to shephard over. this year marks me going for my dream trip.

yet also, this year has seen me in a lot of pain. a lot of discomfort. a lot of disillusionment. a lot of seeing ugliness and imperfection in myself. to a point of grotesque.

has it been a year that i can look back to say that it was worth the walk? i can't comment. has it been a year where God's hand was in my life? Yes. Full of it. But that realisation only comes when I look back. Walking it, it seemed filled with rocks and stumbling blocks. a year where there were times where i truly felt like He had left me.

There's so much that needs restoration. so much that needs healing. so much that........
Maybe everything that happened had a purpose to it... only that i don't see that purpose yet.

Am I looking forward to a wonderful year ahead? hmmm......

I just still choose to believe in His goodness. That He will cause Goodness to reign in my life. I know not what to expect in the year to come. I just wish... that He will be God in my life. that He will continue to keep me. Amen.