whoa!! whoa!!! me and xuehui.... Whoa!!!! i'm so awed!! Really... if not because of You Lord, the conversation would never had happened... Thank You Jesus.... :) The love of God, transcending all peace and understanding.... beyond all of the heavens and the earth... whoa!!! hahaha... anyways, i am so so blessed today.... made such a right decision to go for cg... was so tired after the long long day just now.... so so sleepy... then praise God i had ample sleep from like 330 to almost 5 i think... at the library.... just totally zonked out..... then at cg.... whoa i am so blessed!!! Love everyone of them so so much..... and really, thank God for a wonderful cgl... really.... Jo's such a blessing to me!!! and so are the others.... like though i don't exactly noe vikki, i somehow feel a close affinity with her... such joy to be in the assembly of God's people!!!! haha just now i approached Jo to help me with my makeup on fri.... i'm gonna look like a beautiful princess, in Jesus name!!! haha... hmmm.... and then.... yea i got Tat Hwan and Kim Seng to help me with the stupid econs exposure... they were so patient with me la.... though like they kept teasing me... especially that Tat Hwan... hmmm people are born with different talents... bleah... i'm gonna prove them wrong man... so gonna excel in econs.... though i got no background, but i got Jesus!!! Then Tat Hwan said i probably got to ask the whole campus to pray for me hahah.... Nah, the prayers of the righteous avails much... and hence, my prayers avail much!!! Amen!!
Hmmm.... seriously, when u really take time off everything... all the hustles of life and just take your eyes off your circumstances and look to Jesus, it just lifts you up.... so supernaturally.... Love wat pastor and deacon always says about how one person can only foucs at one thing at one time... and seriously, focusing on Jesus... Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you!!! Whoa... results are remarkable!!! the Love of God..... just blows me away!!! whoa!!! I am just so blessed!!! Hmmm... oh yea and i wana share about my experience with Chua Fook Kee.... hiyoh... he's not that scary afterall i see... heehee.... more like..... totally divine favour!!! Like he was just so nice when i went for the experiment la... (oh to those who don't noe, he's the head of psych dept and like he's supposed to be like the major tyrant la) then like, the criteria was... key in your answers fast and accurately and i'll give u $5... i was like, ok... and then when he left the room, i was still so nervous that my first two responses were wrong... like u hear a 'tee' sound and u're like... ok, there's my 5 bucks haha... seriously, i made quite a no. of mistakes... and i was just telling God, Lord for all You know he'd give me the incentive cuz of Your divine favour, masking all my wrong inaccurate answers... yea... hmmm anyways, after i completed it, i went back into his room and just like passed the green form for him to sign... and just get the credits... i was so ready to just go already la... cuz i thought there was no way i'd get the money... and then he was like, would you like to see how u did? i was like ok... then he looked at my results and went... hmmm u did good... i was like thinking, u're kidding man... haha... and the next thing u noe, he asked me to sign this acknowledgement form and passed me 5 bucks... whoa..... favour favour!!!!!
Hmmm what else shall i say?? hiya i'm just blessed la... blessed by all around me!! Oh... did i forget to mention, Kenny Gee cut his hair!!! i almost couldn't recognise him.... looks much better now man... and like i just found out that Jo was his art classmate last time and she says he's super zai at art.... the things u don't see in a person... whoa....

hmmm well well... i just had presumably the worst dinner in a long long time... plain instant noodles without the ready seasoning cuz mummy said those ain't healthy so she only willing to buy the no seasoning one... then like the stupid fridge had virtually nothing left that was easily cookable... had to thaw the chicken so i was too lazy... hence.... my dinner was, instant noodle+dark sauce+light sauce+pepper... now how else sucky can things get?
well i shall talk about the good good things that happened to me today.... (1) finally i got a chance to ask siao gu gu permission to take emily out... and she agreed so readily... has always been on my heart to bring her out... and Praise God i can finally...
hmmm and then.... (2) haha praise God i didn't get called by Dr Nair to answer any question today... i really got to work on my public speaking skills... my threshold to stress of speaking out aloud in public is... super low man... i just get dumbfounded... trust God!!!!
(3) i went to see stars again!!! I saw a shooting star!!! (for the first time since i can remember) it just..... shot across the sky... oh man.... classic moment!! and i was so so glad that i went over after the welcome tea... that the stupid Pearlyn pang seh'd me... once again i feel like i'm scolding myself... that's for having frens with same name as u... u just can't scold them... haha.... in fact i felt very heavy when i went over to kr... like there's a very heavy burden that kinda thing... maybe cuz i was tired? maybe cuz i just cudn't decide if i wana join snb? hiya dunno la... just heavy... and then initially when i was there... i really felt quite ......... think they could prob tell... but like after a while, i just felt so good... with daren and xuehui... felt like one was my brother and the other my sister... so nice... and like now, i feel very nice still...
(4) well, Deborah inviting me for cg the 2nd time? awww..... :) ok that's quite insignificant... but well... sitting in the library all alone, facing nothing but the pages and pages of the textbook... a nice sms from someone brightens the whole atmosphere... haha...
God is so good to me!!! His princess!!!

Lord You are so good...... i'm gonna meet them soon.... i pray for a blessed blessed time!! Amen!!!

walking down memory lane.... those were really so precious times i spent with Chris, Shiyan, and Benjamin... now we've become so far apart..... it's been too long..... now, even listening to Shiyan's piano thru a music file, not even real life, i'm just brought back to those times.... where i used to really love to go over to his place, with the other guys, just so i could hear him play.... used to be so encaptured by the sounds of his piano... so much.... my seventeenth birthday.... they were the ones who made it memorable.... we used to be so good frens, the few of us..... till............... and we drifted............. Lord, save these friendships Lord... where i've taken so forgranted.... take them, and mould them according to Your good purpose Lord.... Amen.....

hmmm.... i'm gonna try make this entry short cuz i'm gonna go out soon.... going SHoPPing!! which brings me to one thing... i need more time in a day!! Seriously, there's like 593545 things i wana do, and -5395357 hrs to do all haha... hiya, they are eating into my study time.... like, hmmm i was supposed to place that as my priority, and now i'm ending up treating that as though it's a secondary thing to do... no good Pearlyn...
hiya oh well............ anyways, i just wana talk abit about yesterday... was really a pleasant day and night for me... like in the day, i Finally went swimming!!! I miss the pool so so much... like during lg days, haha i remember i'd find all means to escape training.. haha... then like now, i'm just dying to go to the pool.... the evening sun, the nice lukewarm waters.... ooooh i love it... and like though i'm not like some excellent swimmer or wat, well well... who cares? that's really the best part... going swimming alone, nobody knows me... i can do what i want.... freely.....
That's the thing about growing up.. i get more and more aware and mindful of my every deed and behaviour sometimes... my public image... that, is so not fun at all.... has been, and still is.... unfortunately... putting up a facade, even when i don't want to sometimes... it just comes naturally............ sigh....
i love it when i'm free.... free to just be Pearlyn... be who i really am... be just the girl next door.... less than ordinary.... no pressure from the world, from the people around me... no pressure to be who i am not... no pressure to perform up to standards.... no pressure from even myself... which i feel i'm starting to exert just a bit too much....
When i see the lil kiddos boarding the bus after their school ends, i feel so happy, so light for them... they're so pure, so innocent..... black is always black, white is always white.... i look at them, envy them, and wish that places could be swapped....
I see the Potter's hands at work... each and every child.... all telling a story behind them... the Potter moulding so carefully and intricately... as they just walk on a life that could yet be foretold... each of their lives are gonna be different... And each of them are gonna impact the world in their own special ways... small, yet significant....
A smile thus put on my face.... amidst the tint of gloom i feel... At least when i feel all the pressures around me.... i still could go back to my Potter.... and just be who i am... for He made me, and He says i'm beautiful.... and i could just bare myself to Him... every flaw, every imperfection... He takes it all......
Shoots how did i digress?? now, this enty's kinda super long... hahaha... irony irony... okok... i also wanted to talk about seeing stars yesterday... i'd never dreamt, that i'd actually view the stars like that, and be told of the constellations and mysteries to it.... it was such a wonderful night.... so nice.... really really blessed.... of course to have my beloved sister XH, and also to have a very nice friend Daren... :)

i was made to love You
i was made to glorify Your name
in every circumstance
to find a chance to thank You
i was made to praise You
i was made to worship at Your feet
and to obey You Lord
i was made for You

i *think* that's the lyrics of the song... darlings correct me if i'm wrong... haha... but well, this song's been in my head for the whole day today... truly truly... such joy to be His!!

Hmmm... well well, tmr i'd be starting my tutorials... anticipation? Not at all... Apprehension? Totally.... so don't want to start all these all over again.... But well, my Lord is with me... and if He is for me, who can be against me?! Supernatural favour with the tutors and tutorial mates shall be with me!!! Amen!!!!!

Ok, today, i went phototaking... again... haha... with pa again... hmmm actually i'd planned to do my readings today... but oh well... hahaha... hmmm i shall post *some* of the photos here... too ley chay to post everything.... :)


flower series.... Papa teach me how to take one... heehee... :)
















dine-in anyone?



my beloved secondary school... though i nv got a chance to study inside this compounds... there's still affinity... and affiliaty haha...

So......... i just got back from church... 1 question.... i can't help but ponder and ponder over.... all throughout the journey back home. Why, do pple choose homosexuality? unfathomable. totally incomprehensible. shocking, at the same time disturbing. doesn't give a lot of an impact when i hear rumours around. even when i see it for my own eyes in pple i know not personally.
But, when finally, the one in a million chance occurs, right before my eyes, oh man...... when i realise that OMG i do noe of pple like that, hmmm reality hits. why? i mean, like, has it come to a point where they see totally no hope in guys? hmmm... ok not too amazing... to a certain extent i suppose. but well, choosing an alternative as this? what kind of satisfaction do ppl like that draw from each other? Like, hello, they both have a similar biological make up!! Can they truly be happy together? or is it just a facade put up to mask a reality they don't wish to face? Millions of questions! Can a relationship like that prosper? last? As it is, a normal, boy-girl relationship entails so much complications, trouble etc. What more a homosexual relationship? Ok i think i'm assuming. But how can i not? this totally goes against........ just everything. against the normal functioning of nature. Moreover, how can they be so upfront about it? so open. incorrigibly open, public. Don't they mind how others might see them?
Am i biased? Does my thinking stem from a stereotype and a stigma that society has since created? I........ beg to differ...... yet, i wouldn't noe.
Whatever it is, be it due to sociological bias, or due to religious bias, or just whatsoever, to me, i still find it a no no! simply unacceptable. i can't emphasize further.
Although personally i find many men simply too..... well......... far from what a girl might expect........... i still do carry that speck of hope, and for that matter a knowing, that there is still someone, out there somewhere, who would complement me just perfectly. I thank God for letting me see so many successful marriages, through my most beloved church. And each time i see someone i know pair up with a Godly counterpart, even as wedding bells ring, i feel that immense joy for them too. a holy, matrimonal union. blessed. in all of heaven and earth. Well well... my turn will come. romance. just the way i want it. and for that matter just the way he wants it too. Hmmm i'm getting carried away. haha.... the blessedness in Christ Jesus!