ok... hmmm i just survived the ordeal of the stats test... frankly speaking... ever since wed, when i actually felt so disappointed with God cuz i was late for class despite all my 'faith application', refusing to believe that i'll be late etc, ever since then i've felt very distant from Him... like He's just not beside me... and i just can't imagine surviving without Him with me... Indeed, it's really funny how little little things can shake one's faith so much... and by scale wise, that was indeed SO TRIVIAL! hmmm... then like yesterday, i absolutely couldn't study at all... i was just in a very... can't do anything mood... sigh...
Then came the test this morning... it was, at first ok... till after the end of the test, when i realised that my answers were not very similar to most of my peers... sighing.... i so can't afford to fail this test... again... so can't... Lord i am so weary... Lord You are indeed greater than all my problems... and even when i don't feel You beside me, i know You are there... i am facing a battle... i am facing a war... a war in which i feel defeat is just waiting to wallop me... swallow me... But Lord, You promise that You fight my battles, and victory is mine through Christ who conquered... Show me Lord... Grant me Your peace Lord... for Your yoke is light... i don't want mine...
On another hand, i wish to thank Him for my econs test result... that, really did brighten my day quite a bit today... i seriously thought that i'd do quite badly for the test... also considering the fact that i have no econs background... and the fact that i really thought the paper was quite hard and tricky... Praise Jesus... I did quite well... am very pleased indeed... at least outta the 3 tests i thought all'd be buanged... econs was a light of hope... i hope my soci will be likewise.... As for stats... trusting... trusting...

ok. i am so in need of a break. why wasn't i stressed at all last semester? i wonder. this sem, i dunno, it's just kinda overwhelming. the workload and all... hmmm... and like tmr, i'm gonna have a test! stats test! how in the world am i going to do well? GRACE! GRACE! So in need!
Really, how hard it is to adopt a bo chap attitude... if i am able to do that for sure i will not be stressed... and, my support system in school is so frail... ok fine, it's not frail la actually... only that, i can't possibly expect everyone to be there for me all the time rite? oh well.... Amidst every trial, every *sighing* thing that i'm going thru, He is there. I walk in faith.
anw, putting aside all the gloom, id' like to say, that gilbert can write poems pretty well... just read his blog... so... poetic... reflective... makes u think that kind... love to read others' poems and writings... :)

Praise God! Really! Hahaha... hmmm today, i saw me darlings once again! Ooh... heehee.... and.... i had such a blessed time fellowshipping with the other servers... Praise God!!! Hiya i don't really wanna blog so much today leh... will just summarise by saying that me and mummy had a good bonding session today... Praise Jesus! Yeps...

Praise Jesus! Whoa, i am so glad, that i went for the Benny Hinn service afterall... Really really, it was so divine... cuz like we were initially not gonna go one... was going to have a kinda of family outing today instead cuz like yesterday my papa and mummy went and couldn't get in... ya... we were going katong to makan, and then like we had to pass the stadium still... then upon passing the stadium, pa and ma decided to go there and then... at first me and Clifton didn't want to go one... in fact, we so wanted to 'zao' in the midst of the queue... hiyo... the *** ah, i think really not so good in crowd control man... NCC rocks more! so like we spent 2 hours QUEUEING, outta which, 1 hour was spent trying to get from one end of the bridge to other end... like OMG... but, whoa, as the svs started... whoa, the power of God was really there man... i witnessed with my own eyes, the healing power of God... like, literally, see pple get off wheelchairs etc... There was one person, deaf from birth in her left ear, in fact had no left ear to begin with.. (the one she has is in fact an attach on via plastic surgery) whoa! God opened her ears! She could hear! Oh man... Then there was another one, whoa amazing, she had kidney problems, then apparently the doctor said that both her kidneys were failing and she needed a transplant... she came up, told Benny Hinn, that her pain was no more... yet at that time, everyone could see, she was still like prostrated; she had to lean on someone all the time... couldn't stand straight at all... but then, somewhere somehow, whilst pastor Benny was ministering to her, she just managed to stand up straight... totally straight! oh man... right in front of all our eyes! she just started jumping and jumping, and like hugged pastor Benny... whoa! it was, AMAZING! then there was also this little girl, an accident few yrs ago made her cross eyed, and the power of God just touched her... and her eyes were straight again... oh man... All glory to Jesus! U noe, it's like somehow, seeing on the internet, and really just seeing real life, makes just so much diff... Whoa! oh and then there was another thing that was amazing! pastor took turns asking people of some of the different blocks to just join hands, and he'd go 'TOUCH' and like u just see the entire block of people slained... like... whoa.... But it didn't come to my block la... the block beside me kana... my goodness... literally like dominoes man... Praise God!! Then for the choir rite, he did the same thing, and all of them were slained and in the holy laughter... like, double whoa!!! It was just AMAZING! hmmm oh well, one thing though, felt it was such a pity that xuehui wasn't there to see the whole thing... oh man... what to say, it was just AWESOME!