Monday, September 29, 2008
When I choose to take a step. A new step. again. What in Daddy's world am I up against? up for? Would this really prove to have been a journey worth taking? It's so easy to question myself over and over again whether this decision was a right decision made. Whether it was just but a result of me being too cowardly and faint hearted to rise up to what is given to me. I have no honest idea at all.
But I thank God, for giving me that gift of no condemnation. That whatever journey I choose to embark, or stop embarking on for that matter, He will still prosper my every decision and act. Because I am His daughter. Period. No more, no less reason than that.
I often can't help but wonder why it seems that I undergo so much more than what a 'normal' 23 year old fresh graduate undergoes. I've hitherto placed attribution primarily to my over sheltered upbringing. Maybe I need a metanoia. a change in my mindset. I'm placed and positioned by Daddy God to BE a blessing. Whatever I can or can't do, it doesn't count toward anything with Him at all. Responsibility = Response Ability. Responding to Him and letting Him take me through?
What does it mean to be led by grace? God shall show me.
