Tuesday, January 11, 2005
hmmm... well where shld i start from? ok i shall start from the thing that made me most most happy.... that is, having dinner with ahma and ah gong just now... really, it's been so so long since i had a nice family meal with my 2 old folks!! hmmm... just looking at the joy on their faces when we were eating, made me feel so warm... and... like just now at ntuc, when pa told me how he really felt so good to be able to bless ah gong and ah ma... i felt so so.. nice... and really, i was gonna tear already.. really... it's been such a long while... and like they've had a hard life all that, and even til now ahma gotta work... really felt great to see them happy!!! oh man... Hmmm... another thing that made me very happy... was that mummy got a payraise... as she puts it... an incredible pay raise... oh man, praise God man!!! Really really, at the dinner table just now, i felt that i was the most loved and blessed child around... really... my mood... undescribable... felt so much like singing for joy... singing singing... if not for the atmosphere that didn't allow me to... i'd just haf started singing... whoa...puts a smile on my face even as i'm typing now... i feel so so blessed!!! hmmm... what added to the blessed mood, was all that happened earlier this morning... in school... i said in yesterday's entry that i was actually fearful of going back to school... fearful not only cuz of the heavy workload i gotta bear... but also cuz of the overshadow of last sem... how i really did not enjoy my sem, how i didn't haf a life at all, how i didn't noe many ppl, how it'd again take me awhile to start opening my mouth to speak up in class without starting to blush like crazy...... i was so fearful that all that would be re enacted this sem... last nite, i even cudn't sleep for quite a while... well well... today, i went to sch for my first lect of the sem... soci lect... i went with Jason and his friend gwen... hmmm... it was so.......... unbelievable... i saw so many many pple i noe around... church ppl, ex tutorial ppl, etc etc... Everywhere i turned, really... and ALL of them were so friendly toward me!! Like, extraordinary favour!! Even saw Phan, this Thai girl that i met on one of the first few days of sch last sem... only had lunch with her once... then after that i didn't see her again... then today i saw her, and she remembered me, and my name for that matter... quite shocking... And Jason's fren, she looks like a darling too... very sweet and wen rou... noticed the way she was eating lunch just now.. so... gentle.... unlike chor lor Pearlyn... who broke her broom when washing the toilets.. haha... anw moving rite along... OK that's not all... U noe the lecturer lecturing me... it's Dr.Tan Ern Ser... From Christina's CG.. where i used to attend last time... i.e. i know him personally, and his wife!!... Oh man... whoa.... then after the lect, i went forward to just say hi... and like when i talked to him, i felt so welcomed.. i was like, hi sir... and he was like, hi Pearlyn... in a very welcoming way... i wasn't even asking any soci related questions... just there to say hi... haha, then someone else wanted to ask him sthg, and he halted that person just to talk to me... and he just asked me if i was attending the other CG etc.. man... i felt so VIP... Haha.. This is really like God's divine favour on my life lor!! Just as i prayed last nite before going to bed... and there'll be more and more to come!! just as Yvonne was telling me, i'll no longer be alone and no life, because I have Jesus in me, and i'll draw pple to me, naturally, as they are attracted by the Christ in me!!! Whoa i'm really excited by 2005 man!! all the thing's He'd show me!!!