So......... i just got back from church... 1 question.... i can't help but ponder and ponder over.... all throughout the journey back home. Why, do pple choose homosexuality? unfathomable. totally incomprehensible. shocking, at the same time disturbing. doesn't give a lot of an impact when i hear rumours around. even when i see it for my own eyes in pple i know not personally.
But, when finally, the one in a million chance occurs, right before my eyes, oh man...... when i realise that OMG i do noe of pple like that, hmmm reality hits. why? i mean, like, has it come to a point where they see totally no hope in guys? hmmm... ok not too amazing... to a certain extent i suppose. but well, choosing an alternative as this? what kind of satisfaction do ppl like that draw from each other? Like, hello, they both have a similar biological make up!! Can they truly be happy together? or is it just a facade put up to mask a reality they don't wish to face? Millions of questions! Can a relationship like that prosper? last? As it is, a normal, boy-girl relationship entails so much complications, trouble etc. What more a homosexual relationship? Ok i think i'm assuming. But how can i not? this totally goes against........ just everything. against the normal functioning of nature. Moreover, how can they be so upfront about it? so open. incorrigibly open, public. Don't they mind how others might see them?
Am i biased? Does my thinking stem from a stereotype and a stigma that society has since created? I........ beg to differ...... yet, i wouldn't noe.
Whatever it is, be it due to sociological bias, or due to religious bias, or just whatsoever, to me, i still find it a no no! simply unacceptable. i can't emphasize further.
Although personally i find many men simply too..... well......... far from what a girl might expect........... i still do carry that speck of hope, and for that matter a knowing, that there is still someone, out there somewhere, who would complement me just perfectly. I thank God for letting me see so many successful marriages, through my most beloved church. And each time i see someone i know pair up with a Godly counterpart, even as wedding bells ring, i feel that immense joy for them too. a holy, matrimonal union. blessed. in all of heaven and earth. Well well... my turn will come. romance. just the way i want it. and for that matter just the way he wants it too. Hmmm i'm getting carried away. haha.... the blessedness in Christ Jesus!