Hah! I contradict myself ONCE AGAIN. Kept goin' on and on about how I totally do not want to work anymore, and the next thing u noe, Joanne calls and I'm like, Errmm ok i think i can make it. How greater a contradiction can i be? Oh well, it's the Monei! I've been so indecisive about choosing between goin' to Malacca, or goin' for my members' nite on 8th Aug. Partially because i'd really love to go for the nite, and of course also cuz of the M factor. I expect that i gotta use quite a deal of money on my books and material when school starts, plus i'm planning a trip overseas with my darlings at the end of the year, plus all the other miscellenous fees and expenditure (eg. shopping!) that may come along, AND THEN this malacca trip... Well i s'pose at the end of it, it really boils down to how keen i am in goin' on this trip. Need revelation. Hah.
Well anyways, whatever it is, God will prosper me. I did some reflections recently, and it just dawned on me, especially when Kelvin shared yesterday on how we as believers only oughta expect more good things and not curses to come when we're so tremendously blessed (TOTALLY related to my recent episode), that even during any trial that we might face, it really doesn't change the fact that God is good, and that we could rejoice in the trial. Christ has redeemed us from every curse of the law, and hence we stand on blessed ground. It really takes a true believer to say that he rejoices in his trial. Because that is definitely not how the world works. Even the bible tells us to glory in trial and tribulation. Very obviously it ain't because our God is sadistic or sthg rite?! It's simply cuz we can expect much greater grace to cover us thru the trial, and emerge out of it more strengthened, saying beyond a shadow o'er doubt, that MY GOD has delivered me out of the hands of my enemies.
I wouldn't say that this has totally sunk deep in my heart yet, but i'm learning. Day by day, i deem my life as a journey of learning, beholding Him as in a mirror, being transformed from glory to glory, with Him, and in Him! Praise Jesus!
Anyways, on a less serious note, i just wanna say, that whenever it comes to the alternate tuesdays, i gotta work extra hard (physically) on mondays and the other days of the week. Because those tuesday evenings are the times where i have great feasts. Like, seriously. Yesterday, we had a cuisine of mainly spicy food. There was, curry, laksa gravy, meesiam, yong tau foo, lucky plaza duck, wrapped chicken, few kinds of soup, yam kueh, english carrot cake, etc etc etc. I can't exactly remember all now. And on top of that, because it was uncle Tony's birthday, we had a super delicious Mango cake! It's sorta like the in-between of an ice cream cake, and a normal sponge cake. Really yummy.
Actually after my first slice of cake, my stomach signalled me that that was just enough. But my greedy mouth refused to give in, and my hands obediently submitted to its craving, reaching for the mouthwatering entity, cutting a slice delicately, and ooohhh savoring every nibble of the scrumptious cake. All this while, my stomach seemed to be begging me to stop. Haha paints a comical picture eh? Well but that was how i felt. At the end of it all, my mouth was feeling so fulfilled, but i was so bloated in the stomach. So much so that the not-so-nice feeling lasted me through the session, and even after that. Hah. The gluttonous nature of ms Pearlyn. And so, this brings home the point that, I gotta work EXTRA hard at attitudes now. haha.