rite. i am currently a bored, and highly contradictary Pearlyn. feeling so much of an urge to nap, yet am very obviously bothered by the fact that i'd just eaten my lunch, and the common, all-too-familiar saying that it is NO GOOD to sleep right after a meal. A full one especially for that matter. Oh darn. And so, i'm just lingering around the house, wandering, wondering what ought i do now. My fingers are itching indeed, yearning for the very tempting keyboard inside pa's room. but ah well, i'd been fumbling on it the entire morning, well since i was awake at least, that i feel that it is totally not acceptable to start again this soon. Of course i'm also made aware that pa is taking his nap now, after his repeated failures from persuading me to take mine and stop disturbing him *grins* ok he did success in the second part afterall, when i finally decided that it was pointless rattling non stop when he was obviously keen on getting some desired sleep.
So, i'm brought back to square one now. i am bored.
Oh well, since this is MY blog, i realise i am at the liberty to write anything, rubbish or not, in here. and the fact that i am so lazy to lift up a pen makes me wanna type here even more. I have indeed realised, that typing IS so much friendlier than writing. At least when i type, noone is able to see my hideous messiness, which i myself can't stand at times, and try to deduce my character based on a couple of strokes of the pen. How dumb is that? They have a name for that field of 'study'. Lemme see, something that starts with the letter 'S' if i'm not mistaken. Ah heck, do i bother? I would go to the extent of saying that it is very interesting. but to say that i believe in it, well maybe not. Same goes with astrology, fortune telling and the like. It certainly so does not make any sense to let the stars and a couple of frauds dictate the nature of my life. My life is dictated by God and Him alone, and i am happy at that, thankyouverymuch.
Ooh suddenly a picture just flashed across my head. "me going to dine at a dim sum restaurant" O...K...! Hmmm... Movin' right along......
Now, what? rite. i do suppose that some form of more interesting content would do good here. And so, i shall attempt to expound more about God in my life here. What else is there to say? if u my dear reader are not concerned with that and perhaps would like some juicier topics like who's dating who, or *i dunno* any other thing apart from God working in my life, then, i'm sorry that i'd hafta disappoint. Ok here goes.
I am constantly living in such awe of His goodness in my life. I'd never dreamt that there'd be a day where i believed in this Saviour, much less make Him the Essence of my life. It has really come to a point where i feel that it is so hard to doubt that He exists anymore. When i do get the opportunity to share with anyone about my life, He always takes the centre stage. He is all which keeps me together, keeps me strong and going, even in the times of my trials. He is my everything, my substance amidst my emptiness. I am no longer like the rest of the dying world, crying out desperately for salvation from the viles of darkness. I cry, but i cry out to Him. I am not without trials. To be very real, sometimes i feel that the trials scream to overtake me, to just devour me. But each and every time, my God is faithful in line with His promises that He is my victory.
I'm ashamed to say however, that i am often not faithful in many things, in spending time in His word, and I'm so not a person of inummerable revelations all the time. Yet He loves me for who i am, and that is so precious. Because in the natural, many times i don't like the Pearlyn that i see. But because of His love, i can live life naked, real in front of my KING.
When my world threatens to crumble on me, I can just run into His arms of warmth. And He is always there to let me know once again how so He loves me. That amidst the horrendous reality of emotions that always tangle me and my heart, He secures me. I love You Lord. More than anything.
My purpose in living life, is only to show You in my life. Which i am and have. Praise You Jesus.