I've changed. I know. I feel it too. Circumstances. Things that have happened over the year that has forced me to change. To me, it's a force to grow. Yet to some, it's just simply, 'you've changed'. Some celebrate and rejoice with me; some make me feel uncertain about myself. At the end of the day, even if we thrash things out will it result in a change back to who I was before? I'll bet a no for an answer. Call it irreversible. Maybe.
What then shall I do? Shall I even attempt to do anything? Solidly, no. There will be more times, certainly, that I'll be thrown this in the face again. But if I attempt to do something about it each time it happens, I'll only end up worn and tired. So Lord, once again it is this. 'What can I do, what can I say, but offer this heart O God completely to You'. Fight my battles for me Lord. For my strength fails me, yet again.